Remember the urge

Quitting work soon. Sure, it's easy. Not hard to handle. But it's fucking tiring to go from Woodlands all the way to Tampines to and fro. I mean, come on. An hour's trip? I've to leave the house at a earlier period just in case the bus comes late and there's a risk of traffic jam on the expressway. The fuck. The freaking nagging China colleague is also another problem. Keep giving attitude as if I owe him something. Well, at least it's not all bad. Had a couple of laughs with a few of the sales executives and co. Super friendly, super nice.

My ITE posting is not bad either. Got games design and development. Something that's in my interest but it's so far off ): !!
I don't wanna go all the way to McPherson homg @_@
Will be separated from schoolmates and I don't know anyone from ther! How to survive?!? (ToT)/~~~

However, I look forward to the future. Hopefully I'll make a big change and you'll never know what's coming
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Never thought that one day, I'd be losing you

This is my dog. Ding ding. I've had her since I was Primary 2 and she was only 3 months old. She was the first puppy I've ever owned. I've been through thick and thin with her when my family quarrels and she is the only one who can console me when I'm very depressed. She would sit next to me to accompany me, knowing that I need the attention. She is very playful, lazy and at times annoying. But still, I love her more than anything in the world. Whenever a thunderstorm or rain is coming, she would cower and beg me to help her hide somewhere. Whenever she see people coming into our house or nearby the door, she would wag her tail as if she is "welcoming" them. She loves to run up to us and lick us, waiting for us to carry her up and hug her tight. Bad point about her is that she loves to run outside because we hardly bring her out of the house.

Until 25th January, Wednesday evening, she went out of the house when our guests arrive and them not closing the gate without noticing the dog stepped out of the house. Eventually my dog went missing. I didn't know that she went missing until I reached home at about 11pm. I became very frantic and paranoid. So I went out to search for her. Calling out her name below blocks, asking people around if they saw her. I kept crying out for her. But there was no response. She was last seen at the badminton court near block 612 and that is the only information that I know. I don't know what to say. I looked around the whole area from block 600 to block 670. Still, I can't find her anywhere or anyhow. I can only hope somebody took her into shelter instead of wandering around the streets. I can only pray.. I can't do much at all.. I feel so useless.

For 10 years, she's been by my side and right now, I've lost her.

Please help me find her

Name: Dingding

Sex: Female
Age: 10 years old

Breed: Shi Tzu

Color: Tri color; Light brown, white and black

Just so you know

I don't like it when my friends cast me aside while they have found new people to hang out with. I mean, what gives? I've been with you longer than others, so you have no reason to leave me aside. When nobody gives a damn about you, you turn to me? So you're saying I'm a spare tyre? You use me when you need me and then leave me there dumbfounded again? Hello, I'm not an inanimate object. I'm a person just like you. To hell with you casting me aside, pulling me back and then repeating the exact same process again. The fuck is wrong with you? I don't fucking mind you making new friends. But I get damn pissed when I'm thrown aside. Think I'm better off isolated.

If you were to find me when you HAVE NO PARTICULAR FRIENDS, I'd leave you alone. I won't even want to get near you nor even have the slightest thought about you. Just thinking of it makes me sick. I hope society throws you into desolation. Go get isolated. I'm sure you'll just go mad in no time.

SOAB.

Problem?

Its been long. O's result are not good either. Hopefully I'd get into a course. I don't mind any school. Seriously. I don't mind. Work is boring as usual. However, every time I get to work, a problem escalates. I have no idea why. omo omo. Nothing much to write. I better get ideas before I run out of em' soon.

A loss is a loss. What to do?

Been having strange profound dreams lately and I don't like it at all. I'm gonna move out soon and hopefully its still around the area I live in. Work is fine, except for the trade-in clash but its still okay. To be honest, I didn't think that I would "not like" anybody this year. Now that's awkward. This year passed by quickly. In a couple of days would be Christmas and few more days till New Years. Hopefully things will get better next year. *prays hard*

I've mentioned that I've been liking Aoi. I never thought that I would literally melt when I watch Suicide Circus MV. God he's hawt. LOL.

And yet, I can't promise anything nice to blog about. Maybe I just need time. Anyway, I don't think that there is anybody reading this. Hmm. Fascinating.

Well, that's that.

I know that I said that I'll blog, but I'm not really having the "feel" to blog something about. I just feel that something is just not there. Budget is getting really really tight and I have to find a way to spend lesser money @_@. Christmas is next week and I'm not sure if I'm able to celebrate it with my fellow friends. But still, I'm looking forward to it. Since now it's 4.30am in the morning, I shall end off with a new hotstuff that I cannot get out of my mind.

Say hi to my new profound eyecandyman!

p/s. I really have to talk to you. I want to wash my hands off of you. I just can't find time and I don't know where are you.

Melodramatic

Not updating as much as I promised. But I'll be working at the 20th of Nov. Looking forward to getting my first pay and pump @cash into my sub account. Gonna play blackshot. I'll try to post more ^-^