Fuck it, forget it.
I'm no fucking teenager but this is really fucking stupid. I'm done with wanting to stay close to so called best friends.
Also fuck man child. I'd never want to date another man child in my fucking life ever again.
I literally wanna disappear from this entire line of friends so they don't have to deal with me, I don't ever have to feel outcasted and blatantly ignored from my ex within my own same fucking friend group which I've been close to for years.
The fucking audacity that they tell me if anyone has any thoughts of offing themselves should go talk to someone or their friends. Whenever I spoke to them they give me lectures when I just want to complain. I just want someone to listen and when I come to you, you give me your fucking POV why my opinions are wrong. Then fuck you. Practice what you fucking preach.
I'm no fucking perfect person, neither are any of us. But at least I don't give out false pretenses of wanting to be someone of use and actually doing it instead of saying honeyed words. Well that's a damn shocker innit.
