Can you hear my heart

Are you listening?
My voice, it confesses to you
Are you listening now?
Can you hear my heart?

Like falling raindrops on the window
My mind is getting stained by you

I need you I need you I miss you

I saved my words for forgetting you
and I thought I erased you
But I'm thinking about you again
I was trying to forget
If I can, I can say, 'I erased you'
You gotta give me time
I ain't perfect
But I'm trying to erase you perfectly
If I tried to take it back, it's too far
But when I look back,
You're always over my shoulder

I know
I won't be able to erase
Because those memories are too perfect to me
But I try again
Leaving love is harder than falling in love
You make me live and die again
I'm not alive without you
I'm not alive without you
You know I'd die without you

Don't forget

Are you listening?
My voice, it confesses to you
Are you listening now?
Can you hear my heart? (can you hear my heart?)

Like falling raindrops on the window
My mind is getting stained by you

I need you I need you I miss you

Heavy rain is coming, 
like a shower in the middle of a summer night
I think it'll come again
The memory shower
I think you need an umbrella
I'm so worried
I can see over the window
Some frivolous lights of cars to go
somewhere in a hurry
My destination
You probably know it without asking

Your everything that I could touch
Yes, all these things
Those are spread out
And I can't see because of tears
In retrospect, I'm at a standstill
Because I always have a heavy heart
My farewell has slow steps
If I can't take everything back
Bringing in reality can be a solution

But I'm standing here,
I'm still standing here

Are you listening?
My voice, it confesses to you
Are you listening now?
Can you hear my heart? (can you hear my heart?)

Like falling raindrops on the window
My mind is getting stained by you

I need you I need you I miss you

Don't forget me ever never ever
Don't forget me ever never ever
Never ever girl
Don't forget me ever never ever
Don't forget me ever never ever

Me

Lacklustre

Says it all in the title.

I have no more motivation for anything, nor will I ever want to have anymore. Living life as it is and it's suffocating. Throughout this year I dare say, I've changed. Not for the better, I became worse.

They said that new beginnings would change me. Entirely.

I feel like I'm stuck in time. Distorted. Not that I do not want to move on, I don't have the means or the need to. The cycle repeats and I feel as if I'm stuck in a hell hole. Sunken in too deep, too hard to climb out of.

I don't deserve happiness. Its always taken away from me so easily.

Yeap, not planning to live past 30.