Lost. Distressed.

Been long since I've ever posted. Anyway, I don't think anyone would ever read this blog either.

School is fun. Life is hard. That's all I can summarize it anyway. I've always felt that I've been waiting for something that'll never ever happen. Hoping to exist somewhere. Put in so much effort, but still. Results are as expected. They don't ever change. I felt like I was an annoyance to a lot of people. They don't say it, nor show it. But the feeling is just there. I always seem so happy, carefree with endless laughs. Hmm. If only it was true huh. I don't like being pushed away. I've always been with myself, nobody's fighting alongside with me. I tried to hold on to someone else, but damn. Things just don't go the way I want. Nothing goes the way I want, I suppose.

So, where were you when I needed you most?

"I don't know where you're going, or when you're coming home

I left the keys under the mat of our front door

For one more chance to hold you close
I don't know where you're going, just get your ass back home"

Remember the urge

Quitting work soon. Sure, it's easy. Not hard to handle. But it's fucking tiring to go from Woodlands all the way to Tampines to and fro. I mean, come on. An hour's trip? I've to leave the house at a earlier period just in case the bus comes late and there's a risk of traffic jam on the expressway. The fuck. The freaking nagging China colleague is also another problem. Keep giving attitude as if I owe him something. Well, at least it's not all bad. Had a couple of laughs with a few of the sales executives and co. Super friendly, super nice.

My ITE posting is not bad either. Got games design and development. Something that's in my interest but it's so far off ): !!
I don't wanna go all the way to McPherson homg @_@
Will be separated from schoolmates and I don't know anyone from ther! How to survive?!? (ToT)/~~~

However, I look forward to the future. Hopefully I'll make a big change and you'll never know what's coming
（＾Ｏ＾☆♪

Just so you know

I don't like it when my friends cast me aside while they have found new people to hang out with. I mean, what gives? I've been with you longer than others, so you have no reason to leave me aside. When nobody gives a damn about you, you turn to me? So you're saying I'm a spare tyre? You use me when you need me and then leave me there dumbfounded again? Hello, I'm not an inanimate object. I'm a person just like you. To hell with you casting me aside, pulling me back and then repeating the exact same process again. The fuck is wrong with you? I don't fucking mind you making new friends. But I get damn pissed when I'm thrown aside. Think I'm better off isolated.

If you were to find me when you HAVE NO PARTICULAR FRIENDS, I'd leave you alone. I won't even want to get near you nor even have the slightest thought about you. Just thinking of it makes me sick. I hope society throws you into desolation. Go get isolated. I'm sure you'll just go mad in no time.

SOAB.

Problem?

Its been long. O's result are not good either. Hopefully I'd get into a course. I don't mind any school. Seriously. I don't mind. Work is boring as usual. However, every time I get to work, a problem escalates. I have no idea why. omo omo. Nothing much to write. I better get ideas before I run out of em' soon.